:: December 18, 2003 ::

Teaching in Cambodia
I had a bunch of other things I wanted to mention, but they might be better understood if I ramble on a bit about my teaching duties. So, here they are:

I've been teaching now for 3 weeks. In that time, NO ONE has sat in on any of my classes. I could be teaching them how to speak German for all the attention the director gives his teachers. There are maybe 15 western teachers and 15 Khmer teachers. The school is 3 years old, which is pretty good as far as private english schools go. The director, Kwesi, is pretty aloof, and I don't think I've ever seen him frown or move faster than a stroll. His saying goes, "nothing here is going to raise my bloodpressure".

I have 10 classes:
2 children
2 grammar
2 beginner
3 intermediate
1 chinese

I have not had all those classes since the beginning. Each class is 1 hour long, and a few are 1 hour 30 minutes. I get new classes and lose old classes everyday. This week, I've had 4 new classes given to me, most of the time the same day and with only 1-2 hours to prepare. There are always Khmer teachers to fill in if the school cannot get a foreign teacher. Plus, the Khmers cost less than foreigners.

The school here is run like a business, with the children seen as customers. As long as they are happy, they come back and pay more money to the school. What makes the students happy is different in each case. Some of the kids are rich chinese kids who don't want to be there. So, they never participate and never learn. But, somehow(I know how), they magically always pass their exams and move up a level. More money under the table, but it really doesn't help the kid speak english any better. Fortunately, most of my kids are pretty good. I only have 2 classes that give me any trouble. One is the large kids class. I don't think they know the english word for 'quiet'. I keep yelling at them, but they keep talking. I am not allowed to reprimand them, as that would make them angry and not pay money to the school. So, I am told to 'deal with it'. Lately that has been giving the kid candy and telling him to go outside and play.

Sometimes, I don't even get to stay in a class more than 1 day. A few times, I just get sent in so the kids see a foreign face. They ask me loads of questions, all of which are fun for me to answer. I've never been so popular. Outside of the school, things have changed as well. The moto drivers were really annoying me, but now they see me in my teacher's uniform(dress shirt and tie) and ask me questions instead of pestering me to go to the shooting range or killing fields. They see that I'm here for the long term and not as a tourist, and it's not so stressful walking around the city(as long as I'm dressed up).

I teach at 6am all the way up until 8pm. There are large blocks of time in between that I get off, usually from 11-3, so that I can get chores done, or go home and sleep. The school caps the number of hours per week at 30, and I have reached that. Since I am a new teacher, I don't get the best schedule, but people come and go, and the longer I stay, the more I can customize my schedule. It takes 30 min walking, and 10-15 by bicycle, and about 5-10 by moto.

Still, the difference I see coming to work, say from 6am, 11am, 5-7pm... it all feels like a different city. My morning classes are pretty relaxing, and oddly enough, my kids classes are all in the evening.

I'll be stuck at my pay rate of $8/hr for a while, but my expenses here are done with after I get my visa sorted out. After working for 1 week, pretty much all my expenses are paid off. But, now that I know the city, I think I may start venturing off into the country on the weekends. Renting a motorcycle is $3-6 a day, and will get you to some really interesting places. All the landmine scare tactics don't seem to be in effect around phnom penn, as its pretty safe to go anywhere.

There may be another side job opportunity, but it's still being worked out... I'll let you know when I do...


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ot.want.the.constellations.any.nearer;.I.know.they.are.very.well.where.they.are;.I.know.they.suffice.for.those.who.belon
g.to.them.......Still.here.I.carry.my.old.delicious.burdens;.I.carry.them,.men.and.women-I.carry.them.with.me.wherever.I
.go;.I.swear.it.is.impossible.for.me.to.get.rid.of.them;.I.am.fill'd.with.them,.and.I.will.fill.them.in.return.)....You.
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eas'd,.the.illiterate.person,.are.not.denied;.The.birth,.the.hasting.after.the.physician,.the.beggar's.tramp,.the.drunka
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imaginary.lines,.Going.where.I.list,.my.own.master,.total.and.absolute,....Listening.to.others,.and.considering.well.wha
t.they.say,.Pausing,.searching,.receiving,.contemplating,.Gently,.but.with.undeniable.will,.divesting.myself.of.the.hold
s.that.would.hold.me....I.inhale.great.draughts.of.space;.The.east.and.the.west.are.mine,.and.the.north.and.the.south.ar
e.mine.......I.am.larger,.better.than.I.thought;.I.did.not.know.I.held.so.much.goodness....All.seems.beautiful.to.me;.I.
can.repeat.over.to.men.and.women,.You.have.done.such.good.to.me,.I.would.do.the.same.to.you....I.will.recruit.for.myself
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ear'd,.it.would.not.astonish.me....Now.I.see.the.secret.of.the.making.of.the.best.persons,.It.is.to.grow.in.the.open.air
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t.it....Here.is.the.test.of.wisdom;.Wisdom.is.not.finally.tested.in.schools;.Wisdom.cannot.be.pass'd.from.one.having.it,
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re.rises.the.fluid.and.attaching.character;.The.fluid.and.attaching.character.is.the.freshness.and.sweetness.of.man.and.
woman;....The.herbs.of.the.morning.sprout.no.fresher.and.sweeter.every.day.out.of.the.roots.of.themselves,.than.it.sprou
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f.young.and.old;.From.it.falls.distill'd.the.charm.that.mocks.beauty.and.attainments;.Toward.it.heaves.the.shuddering.lo
nging.ache.of.contact.....Allons!.whoever.you.are,.come.travel.with.me!....Traveling.with.me,.you.find.what.never.tires.
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rst;.Be.not.discouraged-keep.on-there.are.divine.things,.well.envelop'd;.I.swear.to.you.there.are.divine.things.more.bea
utiful.than.words.can.tell.......Allons!.we.must.not.stop.here!.However.sweet.these.laid-up.stores-however.convenient.th
is.dwelling,.we.cannot.remain.here;.However.shelter'd.this.port,.and.however.calm.these.waters,.we.must.not.anchor.here;
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nkee.clipper.speeds.by.under.full.sail....Allons!.with.power,.liberty,.the.earth,.the.elements!.Health,.defiance,.gayety
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stale.cadaver.blocks.up.the.passage-the.burial.waits.no.longer....Allons!.yet.take.warning!.He.traveling.with.me.needs.t
he.best.blood,.thews,.endurance;.None.may.come.to.the.trial,.till.he.or.she.bring.courage.and.health.......Come.not.here
.if.you.have.already.spent.the.best.of.yourself;.Only.those.may.come,.who.come.in.sweet.and.determin'd.bodies;.No.diseas
'd.person-no.rum-drinker.or.venereal.taint.is.permitted.here....I.and.mine.do.not.convince.by.arguments,.similes,.rhymes
;.We.convince.by.our.presence.........Listen!.I.will.be.honest.with.you;.I.do.not.offer.the.old.smooth.prizes,.but.offer
.rough.new.prizes;.These.are.the.days.that.must.happen.to.you:...You.shall.not.heap.up.what.is.call'd.riches,.You.shall.
scatter.with.lavish.hand.all.that.you.earn.or.achieve,....You.but.arrive.at.the.city.to.which.you.were.destin'd-you.hard
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